Book

Not that it's even remotely urgent, but…

I think I figured out the book(s).

I'm going to start putting the letters into one of three categories: love, lust, and journal. And go back to categorize all of the existing ones.

Some, I suppose, technically could fall into both the “love” and “lust” categories. I guess, if any part of it is NSFW, then it'll get tossed into “lust”.

When the time is right, I'll print and hand-bind two books (there's a fantastic book about how to do so at our local library), one for the letters in the love category, one for those in the lust category. Still working on the titles. I think the “love” ones will just have the title of this website: “Hill by the Lake”. For the “lust” ones, I dunno… maybe… “Hill by the Lake by Moonlight” or “Hill by the Lake After Dark” or something.

I figure I still have months (at least) to work it out so… no rush. But I'll be workshopping it. And I think it says a lot about how far we've come in the past few months that I'm even starting to think about these things. Oh… I know we've still got so far to go before we can be together, and it's not even remotely clear whether it will really happen or not. But it seems like with the big encounters, each one is more charged than the last… There is a particular trajectory. And there is only so long one can resist gravity…

Anyhow.

The journal letters, which are honestly most of the recent ones, don't make it to print. Wah-wah. But, I won't keep them from her. I guess perhaps I'll still point her to this website sometime. But… after she has the books, and has had some time to look them over.

And decide whether she wants to stick with me, or run for the hills…

run for the hills, probably.

I've started the categorization process. I almost forgot how… full of despair I was during the early days. I almost want to make a third category… But, no. Those'll just get the “love” tag. I want to be vulnerable to her, and I guess letting her see that would probably be a significant step in that direction. But, gosh. Wow. I really have come a long way.